For the past couple weeks I’ve been working on a character and weapon physics system (DragonIK PhysAnim) and it’s been doing my head in. It’s one of those things that works in their example project but in my project, it doesn’t like very well but also the way it is, isn’t up to par on what I want. So I had to fiddle with it to make it the way I exactly want it and actually works in the first place. The last couple days I’ve been digging through my project and process of eliminating this one bug that made my character have physics that it didnt need to and after all that time, I’ve realised that a bit of my code was wrong so I feel like a complete retard but at least I figure out the issue in the end…

Btw this physics system I’ve explained in the commits but basically your character when hitting something actually has physics so you touch a wall, you arms/legs (or whatever part of your body) actually moves like you’re hitting the wall realistically. So with equipping weapons, it’s the same thing.

So yeah I’ve been slowly loosing my mind over something soo little but again, least I don’t have to worry about this shit anymore and I can learn from this that I need to recheck my code and keep in mind on what should be in place as far as logic checks. Usually I’m pretty good but you get those days every so often. Hopefully just this once.

So I’m currently cloning my repo from github due to me fucklng around with backups and it wasn’t using the same commit structure as my local backups and I can’t rebase properly so unfortunately I have to wait a bit for this to download. In the meantime I’m writing this.

Umm for the game dev updates, to be honest I kinda don’t really want to be doing recaps all the time. I’ve written most of the details in the commits and there’s not much else to really say off that since there’s no feedback. But I will mention stuff that I feel that needs to be said like personal struggles, upcoming or useful features etc. Speaking of upcoming features, I kinda but still planning on making a procedural reload system. I have had the proper chance to work on it properly due to me fixing previous issues but I do think it would be a great for modular weapons.

So I’ve not 100% structured out completely but I different points from where you would grab the weapon magazine, a point where you throw away the mag or not, a point where you grab the mag off your character to reload, then to where you unloaded initially and chamber the weapon if needed. The main reason to have this system is 1, modular weapons because I do plan on being able to customize your weapon completely. 2, it’s easier to implement more weapons without needing an animator or scraping animations to fit with it to look “good”. This might take a fair bit of time to constantly adjust just to get it working and looking nice but it’ll definitely be worth it in the end. I kinda already have a modular reload system but it’s more like modular animations instead of procedural. It was not actually physically editing the character’s arms with virtual keyframes, it’s purely animation wise where I’m playing an animation after another animation and just swapping any of them that fits with the weapon and toggling if I need my left hand to snap to the weapon, whereas this system with move the hands to points of where the mag is etc what I already said previously.

So that will be interesting to work on. But I do have this thing in the back of my mind that these little things are taking a while to fix/implement which I do need to try pick up the pace a bit, although I try not let it get to me because we do end up in annoying situations that do need time to process and to make something in quality it needs to be polished. I also have been working at my job as well which is taking a bit of my time also which does annoy me but it keeps the roof over me and my mum’s head. Cost of living is fucked but we gotta keep pushing until if I even make it to a situation where I can easily self sustain my financials. That’s the dream and I’ll keep pushing but keep it at a healthy pace. Hell if I do drop dead somehow or someone robs the place again (this was decades ago when I was very young) at least this project is not completely relying on something substantial (ie the player base).

I also want to talk about something which I’ve been meaning to say for a while, and it’s been in my notes for months; that I’m actually truly grateful of my life in general. I’ve been soo lucky to be where I am today and I haven’t even “made it” yet if that even means anything. From my mother supporting me living at home for all these years not forcing me into doing something I completely dislike to my health as a person and just generally having a mostly happy life. Yeah my personality may seem bland and blunt at times (I’m partly German btw), and also very introverted IRL but I still appreciate every moment that happens, well for the most part anyway lol. I haven’t been sick in years while everyone else around me has. Every day you hear bad shit online and on the news, and I mean some fucked up shit that should never happen like that 70 year old that got murdered by a 16 year old and got bailed out instantly. But it’s also happening everywhere which really makes you think about the whole of humanity in a different way. Even in my area someone got yeeted by a shotgun like 5 min away from us. Someone got stabbed a couple streets away from us a month or so ago. A couple houses away from us, a husband murdered his wife. A few streets down from us, a pregnant teen got raped and murdered on her way to home from work. I know some people might look at this it’s not really what they want to read but shit man we can’t look away from this shit forever. Yeah we can suppress it but can’t pretend that shit didn’t exist.

I’m the type of person that I completely agree the world needs cleansing and need to be brought to order against all these fucked up beings. I’m all for natural selection but if we got civilization in a “safer” manner, may as well dial it to 100%. This will be very controversial and potentially used against me but the one and only thing I can agree with Hitler is executing the mentally disabled. Don’t get me wrong there are some very nice autistic people that I personally know but I’ve also met some really fucked up individuals and when I mean fucked up I mean shit-fetish bestiality type fucked up shit. Yes this is a person I met online (and there are probably many more of them out there). I somehow met him through one of my mates that mainly the only reason he hanged out with is a clan on a game and was funny to meme on. But my mate recently just cut ties of that cunt because he’s really tiring to talk with because he’s just a stubborn self centered retard that doesn’t want to learn from his mistakes and puts the blame on everyone else. He cant read (due to not wanting to learn I assume judging by word of mouth), he apparently was actually dropped when he was little I believe so that explains the brain dead takes and how he stutters every 2 seconds, he apparently raped his younger sister, fucked a donkey, is also gay (not like that’s a bad thing but they also have a shit fetish so the cunt most likely has aids). And most of these claims he admits himself. Like wtf cunt. There’s even pictures of the cunt naked covered in shit. If you hate picturing this shit, you’d fkn puke at the pics fr. And why the fuck do we have pics? The cunt just sends it to my mate for no fkn reason, he’s a fucked up human being. Also the type of person that says they’ll change but never actually does and keep doing bad shit. My mate was kinda like a care taker, reading shit for him and kinda supporting him in some aspect but he’s drawn the line soo many times but like I said he doesn’t learn. A literal piece of shit in a nutshell. He also somehow runs a clan btw and some what popular too, that shit blows my mind even more. But people leave it instantly by just talking to the cunt.

Anyway, enough of that ehhhhh. My github just finished so I’ll keep the rest of this short. All I mainly wanted to say in that last point is that I appreciate everything that life has given to me up to this point. I’ve seen people taken out by cancer in the relevant au gaming communities at a young age that didn’t deserve any part of it. I’ve seen people working at a 9 til 5 job everyday or even more and hating their life because they have no time doing anything, I would be completely depressed if I did that shit, I had a sliver of it and I want nothing part of that life especially in something that you don’t like doing. I’m just grateful to be this lucky in life and I’ll strive to appreciate every part of it but negativity will always come around the corner which isn’t always a bad thing but with the way this generation is going, it is pretty bad.

Alright I’m done here, I played Enshrouded or whatever check my review on it or some shit idc.